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I make my own path...
And I love it that way.
15th-Jul-2008 02:26 am - this is eerily spot on...
Pisces Rising
You experience your body as one big feeler or antenna, so you are very open to pleasure and
pain, and therefore you identify with whatever stimulus seems the most appropriate to your ever-
shifting outlook. If you feel like languishing ecstatically, then you become an exotic hedonist; if
guilt prevails, then you are drawn to pain and punishment, or purity and asceticism. When feeling
positive and noble, the artist or the healer appears as your persona. The list is endless - and
likewise, you can appear to be many things to others.
Sooner or later your life has to be organized in a fashion that stops your various identities
constantly changing into one another, for this breeds some confusion in others, and oceans of it
in yourself. In order to acquire this integrated identity, you should embark upon a definite task or
service in order that your super-sensitivity can be positively employed, otherwise you are in
danger of dissolving into the boundless.
Such sensitivity could be divided into three types: Intuitive-Healing; Imaginative-Inspiring:
Mystical-Enlightening. In the first case, it is your soft and soothing presence, which is also deep
and powerful, like the sea that can give rise to a healing ability. In the second, the myriad
impressions you receive from your inner and outer environments can be translated into sound or
vision or words. In the third case, your psychic awareness allows you to tune into presences,
atmospheres and ethereal realms in such a way as to broaden and enrich your own and others'
senses of what constitutes reality.
In order to balance out and focus these subtleties, you tend to attract partners who are helpful
and discriminating, and point out the precise and practical details of life.

Neptune is your Ruling Planet, which governs the link between your exterior being and your
interior being. So study Chapter Eleven - Your Neptune Profile, with this in mind.
Find out more with your full-length Soul Scope reading.
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Sun in Aries
Your essential purpose in life is simply to do something that makes you feel an independent and
effective individual. You could be doing this in some form of leadership or selling, or by forcing
others to look at themselves in a new way. You could accomplish this either consciously, by
carrying out a deliberate act in the name of some cause, or unconsciously, by making it hard for
others to relate to you as you are.
You should be consciously aware of your pioneering streak, for in this way not only do you enjoy
life more, but you avoid feeling pushed around by others - and with you it's more or less a case
of push or be pushed.
This can be objectionable at times - and indeed your childlike impetuosity can repel others' co-
operation - but you must have the freedom to act. Don't just think about it and get pent-up in
the process. At all costs you need to avoid negative emotions like resentment, regret or self-pity,
for they would deny you what is essential to your Arian nature - straightforwardness in
responding to a challenge with action.
You should not be afraid to be forceful in this. If you are afraid, then look for negative examples
of force in your personal history, what initially compromised your right to assert yourself. This
right is like the outpouring of life itself and nothing should be allowed to get in the way of its
innocence and freshness for this is what enables your Sign, like no other, to set the ball rolling.
Find out more with your full-length Soul Scope reading.
s in 8
Moon in Scorpio
Your reigning need is to feel close to someone or something. In order to satisfy this need, you
have a profoundly intuitive sense of the emotional nature of people and situations. The trouble
for you is that your need for closeness is compulsive and so you can feel lonely or abandoned all
too easily and then your intuitive sense becomes a radar that picks up anything which bears the
slightest suggestion of abandonment or threat towards your vulnerable emotions.

The mistake you're making is that you are interpreting others' negative emotional states as being
aimed specifically at you. It is then only a matter of time before such paranoid conduct does
actually attract a negative attitude or act towards you. So you need to identify how and where in
your past you initially felt betrayed or abandoned, and exorcise that demon. Until then you will
either be haunted by a fear of being alone, or you will find yourself in solitary confinement.
Having overcome what must be the oldest human fear, that of abandonment - or at least, when
you're not feeling threatened by it - you have an emotional perception of others that is accurate
to the point of being deeply reassuring. At your best, you can make personal sacrifices for the
good of the whole.
Find out more with your full-length Soul Scope reading.
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Mercury in Aries
Your mind has to be active - you want thoughts and words to become deeds rather than be left
merely in the realm of ideas so this terrier-like mentality of yours enables you to learn,
communicate or teach quickly and effectively. It also confers a flair for selling and promotion. The
shortcoming of such cerebral impetuosity though is that you can have a one-sided point of view
and a tendency to make decisions before all the facts are considered. You worry at the heels of
anyone you're working with, talking or selling to. It's not surprising then that there's a lack of
follow through on certain projects. Yet all these could be described as occupational hazards of a
mind and tongue that just have to strike while the iron is hot - but a dash of diplomacy would
make for smoother, steadier progress.
Find out more with your full-length Soul Scope reading.
f in 1
Venus in Aries
You love as a child loves, seeing human relationships as being natural and uncomplicated - at
least, at first. You are generous, guileless and direct - and expect others to be the same. You're
crestfallen when you find that they're not, but not as a rule heart-broken. You get back up again
as quickly as you fell in love in the first place. This impetuosity of yours certainly possesses a
quality that is immediately attractive to others.
It also makes you very impatient to give, gain or receive love. So much so that you are inclined
to mistake lust for love and it takes a while before you're able to spot the difference. There is
something impish and naughty about you that can cause others to do childlike things they
wouldn't do normally. This has its good and bad sides in that you are able to introduce a
refreshingly primitive glee into your social or romantic spheres, but you can lead others on and
then be gone. Such a 'love them and leave them' style can cut both ways you will find.
Find out more with your full-length Soul Scope reading.
g in 2
Mars in Taurus
You assert yourself best in a physical or material way. This means that you are happy pursuing or
involving yourself with something that is tangible and not just a concept. Your 'desire nature'
therefore very much relates to physical contact and reactions. Indeed, as if to prove the point,
you have a definite feel and touch sensuously speaking.
This could find expression in work like massage or physiotherapy. Your shortcoming is that you
can undervalue the importance of subtler, more psychological aspects of being and relating. You
can also be inordinately preoccupied with acquiring money and property, with the result that you
become a slave to assessing worth solely in material terms. You are quite passionate sexually,
but it can take a lot to turn you on - or off.
Find out more with your full-length Soul Scope reading.
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Jupiter in Aquarius
You find and seek faith in your friendships and any club or movement that you subscribe to. In
your book, faith hinges on the fact that a sharing of ideas and ideals with others leads to mutual
growth and encouragement and upon your belief that it is your social values that are correctly
paving the way ahead.
However, this can lead to your social group being self-righteous which acts to hide your own
doubts. Such 'revolutionary blindness' can then give rise to offhandedness and associations
becoming unreliable. Truly your faith rests upon being able to share with your peers both the
bright and the shady sides of your nature. In this way your basically humanitarian philosophy of
life gains weight and conviction for both yourself and others.
Find out more with your full-length Soul Scope reading.
j in 8
Saturn in Scorpio
You are learning to effectively handle and express any kind of power, be it sexual, political,
personal, material or whatever. There is an intensity about the way you pursue your aims and
objects of desire and you're hard to stop once you have decided upon a particular course of
Equally, and maybe because of this, you can torment yourself over what course of action to take;
but this is understandable considering the damage that could be wrought if your energies were
misdirected. Negatively, you can display a ruthlessly controlling and scheming nature. You may,
on the other hand, be a victim rather than a perpetrator of such, but it still points to the
necessity of looking at how you are, or are not, expressing your power and desires.
Find out more with your full-length Soul Scope reading.
K in 9
Uranus in Sagittarius
You belong to a generation (born during the first five years of the twentieth century or the early
to late 1980's) whose intention was to reform religious, legal, cultural and educational attitudes.
As an individual you could either be on the receiving end, in that you fall foul of and rebel against
these aspects of life as you encounter them, or (and possibly as a consequence of this) you seek
to force changes in one or more of these areas. Whether you are conscious of it or not, a
recognition of universal laws and the freedom to believe in what you wish is what fires your own
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Neptune in Capricorn
You belong to the Neptunian generation born between 1984 and 1998. You therefore came into
being during a time when humanity officially began to understand how subtle but very powerful
forces affected our Earthly environment - and how we could all be doomed if we did not begin to
pull together as a species. This time sees the beginning of world government and the ascertaining
of what spirituality and sensitivity mean in the most practical sense.
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Pluto in Scorpio
You are a member of the Plutonian generation (1983 - 1995) that witnesses the inevitable
consequence of mankind's mishandling of power and resources. During this period crises threaten
our very existence and it's only through a true and deep understanding of what power and
transformation actually mean that we avert disaster and deliver ourselves into a new era.
Find out more with your full-length Soul Scope reading.
+ in 9
Sagittarius at the Midheaven
For your professional life to be satisfying and successful it needs to be ever expanding, growing
beyond itself, so this poses some work or subject that is never finished - teaching, religion,
philosophy, archaeology, anthropology, history, law, publishing; anything that is seeking to
include and understand more and more. In a physical sense, this would also include any kind of
sport or occupations involving travel.
You are happiest trying to reach as many people as possible; Sagittarius likes to bring and bind
people together with a sense of enthusiasm. You also like plenty of room to operate so a
restricting sort of work life is very inadvisable. Furthermore, religious influences in your life
greatly affect your choice of profession or the moral way that you conduct it.
26th-Jun-2008 09:45 pm - Learning more about bipolar disorder.
I have the worst type. Rapid-cycling.

28% of patients with rapid-cycling bipolar I disorder kill themselves. That is a scary number.

Rapid-cycling is characterized by 4 episodes in a 12 month period. I have had more than four in ONE day before. I am lucky to say that I only have one seriously depressed episode in a year, usually, maybe two. It's the manic episodes that come on all of the time. I have had more than I can count in the last 6 months.

The more I read about this illness, the more I realize how bad it is, and what I thought once was mild (I thought I would be less mild than II), I am finding out more and more that I am classified as extremely hard to treat, and that I require regular therapy to live a normal life.

This isn't fair.

What did I do to deserve this disease?!
22nd-Jun-2008 11:36 am(no subject)
Dear God,

Please let him love me, or let me fall out of love with him. I can't take this pain anymore.
22nd-Jun-2008 01:08 am - Time Travel
This is a randomish thought.

I always read about how time travel to the past is widely accepted as impossible, simply for the grandfather paradox.

My question is this:

The grandfather paradox is only exploring the possibility of physically traveling through time, ie - you strap yourself into a machine and go back and hang out with yourself as a 9 year old. What about time travel in another sense?

More of a Goundhog's Day ideology would be that you travel back into time as yourself, ie - you return to your 9 year old self as your 9 year old self. Whether or not you are aware of your time travel in the scenario is irrelevant. The thought that you could change the past to affect the future to make your travel to this time impossible is what is said to make the idea of time travel impossible. I prefer to say it makes it illogical at best, as you will undoubtedly make the same mistakes (history repeats itself?)

So what if, you could travel into the past unaware of doing so upon your arrival? The idea that time is not constant and is experienced differently to each individual is very much fact, proved time and again by Einstein's theory of relativity. So, if you can use your mind to stop time (even if only to yourself), what is stopping the belief that you cannot use your brain to go backwards?

Whenever I have a deja vu, I think about this possibility. Am I merely reliving the same experiences again without an cognitive knowledge of it? Is that deja vu my brain's sudden recognition that I have in fact made these same mistakes before? Am I living again? Did the future me attempt to come back and correct the errors I believe I had made?
16th-Jun-2008 05:03 pm(no subject)
Dear heart,

You suck at this.

Your head
15th-Jun-2008 08:36 am - Reasons why I should stop loving him
1. He has no respect for me.
2. He lies to me constantly.
3. He blames his troubles on me.
4. He cares more about himself than his daughter and I.
5. He doesn't give a crap about me.
6. He offers others help, and then puts me down if I am need.
7. I'm so mad I can't remember the rest of this list.

My heart hurts.
31st-Jan-2008 10:12 pm - Lice Knowing You, Inc!!
Lice Knowing You, Inc.'s owner Nancy Gordon came to me armed with a few words. Whimsical, Witty and Character. These are the things she wanted to see in her company, Lice Knowing You, Incorporated's web site. She wanted to grab the attention of visitors, and entice them to learn more about her service. As the only lice removal company in the Seattle area to make house calls, I was easily pulled into her idea of helping out parents and teachers everywhere in getting rid of lice. In her cleverly titled resources section "The Facts of Lice", I learned that drugstore brand removal techniques do not work, and that doctors will do little to nothing about it, outside of handing you a bottle of prescription shampoo.

This is an awesome service, and Nancy's already large client-base can attest to that. Several testimonials have already been written about the company and their expertly trained technicians, and we can certainly expect more to follow.

I had a bit of an agenda of my own with this site. Nancy was looking for a simple way to make updates to the site, and strong accessibility and search engine optimization techniques of development. Already well-versed in accessibility and SEO, I wanted to tackle it even more. Her site is completely accessible (disable the CSS and you will see), and I have implemented sIFR for viewing pleasure, which can be easily removed, and substituted with a web-safe font without the design being compromised.

I am still what I consider new to Ruby on Rails framework, but I have now armed myself with a simple CMS plugin based on divs, haml and AJAX that I can proudly say I designed and built myself. This site was an amazing milestone for me in what I will be able to accomplish in the future, and how quickly and efficiently I can get it done. (I've listed the CMS as a separate portfolio piece).
10th-Jan-2008 09:17 am - IE6 - goodbye incompatibility
here's something I discovered at http://etatdesieges.com/_assets/scripts/ie6fix/

Googling - I found http://code.google.com/p/ie7-js/

This is a very interesting project. It's a JavaScript library that brings IE7 compatibility to IE5-6.

And, the best thing is that it works. We no longer need to not use CSS2 + CSS3 + PNGs for the sake of the 30% of people still browsing with IE6.

Woo wooo.

I will be installing it on my site for the png support shortly. The HTC fix doesn't work in Ruby on Rails - so this is a huge help.
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